We all experience fear at times. Sometimes we are more equipped to deal with it than others.
We all find our way to cope, or escape, or delay the inevitable. Some dive in headlong. Others sit back and cautiously observe before making a move.
This can be in our careers, relationships, studies or athletic pursuits.
In my case, it’s my writing. I’ve been doing a fair amount of it. But you haven’t seen it.
Last night, at Barbell Club, Robby said, “Chuck, you’ve been kind of quiet lately. I haven’t seen any essays on your blog. And I haven’t received any e-mail notices.”
I told him I’ve written a half-dozen pieces, but they’re all about 90-98% done. I’m not ready to “pull the trigger”.
So today, I opened my site and I discovered I have over 20 draft articles in various stages of development. Yeah, twenty! With minor edits, at least a dozen of these are ready for publication. So what gives?
If you’ve ever written anything for the world to see, you are aware of the twinge of anxiety that comes with every press of the Publish button. It’s one more chance to be loved, or openly rejected for the world to see.
This is how it feels, but it is not reality. Oftentimes what I publish may be embraced by some like minded people who relate to the thoughts I’ve put down on paper (or pixels). Other times, my writing is simply ignored. Perhaps it wasn’t timely, or perhaps there is some other event going on in the world that has captured the imagination of readers.
But seldom has my writing subjected me to hostility or outright criticism. So why am I struggling at this time? That will be the focus of my next post (which I promise will be early week). Ironically, I’ve had a productive year thus far, in regards to food and fitness. So I’ve got much to share. So tonight, after dinner, I’ll throw a load of laundry in washer and I’ll get cracking on editing a story for Monday morning.